things I'm afraid to tell you....

I was reading one of my fave blogs Little Brown Pen and was

inspired by her post today (which is below):

"Last week, my friend Ez of Creature Comforts shared a link to a post by Jess Constable of Makeunder My Life. It sparked a twitter conversation about how over styled and/or perfect our lives can appear on blogs. Most of us share pretty things, ideas that inspire us, edited photos, gorgeous products or homes we covet. From the outside looking in, lives can appear rosier than they are.

A few of us decided to pick a day and share things we wouldn’t typically talk about on our blogs – imperfections, insecurities, quirks, etc. Today is the day and Ez has the “Things I’m Afraid To Tell You” participant list over at Creature Comforts. Perhaps you’ll be inspired to share some of your own!"

After reading Nicholes, I decided to give it a try, here is my contribution.  I'm not really afraid to tell you, just don't talk about many of these things:

I'M VERY SHY - but if you met me you would never

believe it.  I guess it's a remnant from my childhood.

I moved 4,000 miles away from home when I was 20 to

put myself in a position where I would have to talk

to people as I hated being shy.  Well it worked, but

sometimes I still have that shy girl in me.

MY DAD - I was very upset with my dad and wouldn't return

his phone calls begging me to call him back a few months

before my sons wedding.  He had told me he wasn't coming,

and I was really upset as this was his first grandchild to be

getting married.  He ended up coming and we all had a great time.

That was the last time our family saw my dad.  He was killed 6 months later.  After he died, his girlfriend had told us he was

not feeling well at all which was why he wasn't going to come, but he always shielded us from any health issues, so I had no idea. I felt some guilt after I heard that, but glad I persisted

and got him to come, as that was a special day for us all.

I'M HAPPILY UNMARRIED - Alex and I live together with my daughter and have for almost 10 years.  Neither of us feel the need to be married despite everyone we know always asking us when we are getting married. (which gets a bit tiresome after awhile.) I just tell them to throw us a party if they need a celebration...haha..I also don't talk alot about Alex on here, as he is a very private person - social media wise.  If you met him in person you would never guess that as he is the most outgoing, crazy, fun person who has no filter when it comes to saying what is on his mind.(which has led to some very cringe worthy moments for me..haha..)You gotta love an honest person though.  He is just very old fashioned in that he believes in talking to people in person or on the phone and not through social media outlets.

MY ELDERLY FRIENDS - Although I love spending time with them, and I feel they add so much to my life - there are times when I feel so utterly distraught after listening to things they have to go thru on a daily basis and how they are treated by their family and people who are at the assisted living home.  

MY TEMPER - I am one of the most easy going people you will ever meet, just don't piss me off...haha..One of the recipients of my temper is our home, as that is when I do my best cleaning.  So when things get a bit messy at home or the office, I am secretly hoping that someone will make me mad.

OUR HOME - We don't live in a huge house, but a small very nice, cute home with a good size backyard that I love to spend alot of time in when the weather is nice!  I have moved so many times over the years, that my load is quite light as of now and that is just how I like it.  However, I live with a packrat, so it takes alot of creativity to keep it hidden away..

MY ADDICTION - Black Licorice - I can only buy one small stick at a time, if I buy a box it will be gone that very day. I have no stop button when it comes to black licorice. :)

 I came to this blogworld to forget about the stresses in my life and I think at times, while we are reading other people's blogs that we forget they came here too for that reason.  That is why you see alot of pretty going on.  Life isn't perfect, it's pretty darn messy at times, to be honest.  But thru these blogs I have been inspired by so many woman and happy for all of their successes found thru blogging.  Isn't that what life is all about - supporting each other and most importantly being kind - to everyone and that definitely includes ourselves!

Have a beautiful day!

xxoo