4 years ago today...

I lost my dad.

This movie always makes me smile and reminds me

of my dad as he loved to dance. When I was little

my parents would go dancing on Saturday nights

and he would dance around the dining room while

he was waiting for my mom to get dressed, and

sometimes my sis and I would step on his shoes

and dance with him. Dancing was always a part

of his life. I used to get so annoyed with him at family

reunions when he would want to "teach" me all of the

dances, as I was very shy and just embarrassed at the

time. Later in life, for a few years he was a certified

ballroom dancer on cruise ships and got a chance to

see the world and meet alot of fascinating people.

When they docked in San Francisco one day, we all

met him on the ship for lunch and he gave us a tour,

which we truly loved. He lived his life by the seat of

his pants - wonder where I got it from. Willing to embrace

change and looking forward to the next adventure. Four

years ago we all embarked on an adventure that I truly don't

wish on anyone - but today, as everyday I feel blessed to

have had the dad that I had. He was loving, he was fun, he

was just the best dad this girl could ask for and I truly miss

talking to him, arguing with him, rolling my eyes at him,

laughing with him. I know he is with me always - I carry

him in my heart and memory - some days I just wish

I had one more day with him. A few weeks ago, I found

an email he had sent to Alex shortly after he met him.

He thanked him for being there and

taking good care of his daughter

and granddaughter and that it made his heart happy knowing

that we were in good hands. That made me smile.

P.S. Last night I had an impromtu night

out with my girlfriends, as

my childhood boyfriend was playing with his family at

a pub tonight...he was just my pretend boyfriend,

the one that I had his pictures all over my walls.

It was fun to see him again - I hadn't seen him

in a few years and when I do I always feel

like that 10 year old girl....:)